The fitness industry got the best of me, but then...
Life is about balance! Pun intended :P But on a serious note, being in this industry can be incredibly challenging because it is SO much pressure to look a certain way.
When I initially got into fitness it wasn’t for me, it was for someone else. But even though I was going for the wrong reasons, I began to absolutely love it.
The gym was my spa, my haven, my stress release and sometimes even felt like my home. When I wasn’t at the gym, I wanted to be there. It gave me confidence, it gave me strength, and it gave me a purpose. I was now going for me, and only me!
There’s no greater feeling then finding something your super passionate about that is also healthy for you. But in the last year-ish that joy has lessened. It’s lessened because like the start of my journey, I quit doing it for me... and started doing it for others. Instead of focusing on looking good and working out for myself, I went to the gym to keep up my body so that it would look good for Instagram. Like really? My life has become trying to impress people I hardly know? Obviously my photos are to motivate you and I want that. But I’ve lost a bit of my passion in the gym for myself because my mindset of why I was working out changed.
Each persons mind works differently, some people would probably feel more motivated having the pressure of social media. But not me... those that know me, know that I’m a VERY stubborn girl and don’t like to do things under a feeling of pressure or control. Social media had me feeling controlled for a while and that just sucked the life out of me. I lost my love for the gym and working out and was just going through the paces with very little enthusiasm.
I would be drinking a beer or a glass of wine and before the glass was done I’d be thinking about how this could make my stomach look bloated in a photo. That’s just not a healthy way of thinking. The old me would just kick ass all week so that I wouldn’t even think about anything while enjoying beverages with friends.. because I earned it.
Not ‘this is gonna make me look less fit in a post’.
I lost some hard earned results going into that mindset for a while. But I’m a trainer and a big part of being a trainer is learning the emotional side of a client to help them through the mental barriers that are making things difficult. So I acted as my own trainer... did some serious reflecting and I’ve managed to find the root of my issue which is that I simply quit doing this for me... it was like a lightbulb went off. But I’m going to change that mindset around. A positive and healthy mindset is everything.
I just wanted to be honest with you about what I’ve been dealing with lately. No one is perfect. We all have mental and physical challenges. But it’s about learning to get through them and really putting focus on yourself and your needs; worry about everything else after. "I am doing this for me"- "I look this way for me".
I’m going to remember that and remind myself of it daily now. I hope you do too!
✌🏼🙏🏼 Find your Balance & do things for you! 🙏🏼✌🏼